I'm Talking To You! Wait. Who Said That?

Do you ever talk to yourself? Have you ever been in public thinking so intensely about something that you have to stop and ask yourself, “Did I just say any of that out loud?” We all talk to ourselves, consciously, unconsciously, and sometimes out loud if we don’t think anyone will hear us. I don’t believe we need to ask ourselves if we are crazy, but I know the better question we need to ask ourselves is, do we ever truly listen to what we say to ourselves?

You don’t have to be in deep thought to be talking to yourself. In fact, sometimes you don’t have to say or think a word for your unconscious mind/body/spirit to absorb the energy surrounding a conditioned response. An action, or perhaps more accurately a re-action, can take the form of self-communication.

A word that I believe is misused and over-used is the word “sorry”. If someone bumps into you in a crowded place, and you say, “I’m sorry”, then you are telling yourself that you are at fault, you didn’t deserve the space you were occupying, and therefore, the other person was more deserving and you shouldn’t have been so rude as to be in the way of that person. You most likely do not consciously take yourself completely down this trail of thought, but that is the problem, you don’t have to because you have conditioned yourself to feel and experience it in an instant. Now, I’m not speaking about the time you completely smashed a flip-flop clad someone’s toe under your boot and that caused an excruciating amount of physical pain to them; just a casual brush or bump is sufficient for our example, and if you did smash someone’s toe then an apology is quite appropriate. Even if the alleged bumping wasn’t your fault or doing, an “excuse me” would be much more apropos, and even a little more gentle and loving to you.

Or maybe you made a mistake or some blunder (which is really only an experience and lesson if you choose to see it positively) you are prone to saying something we have all said, such as, “Oh! I’m such an idiot!” What have you just done by saying this? You have just reinforced in your being that you are indeed an idiot, and the next time you have the opportunity to learn, you miss the point and, again exclaim that you are an idiot or stupid or not good enough, thereby solidifying that you are the idiot you so unconsciously deem yourself to be. The world presents all of us with enough opportunity to receive negative input, that we are remiss and completely denying ourselves the opportunity to give ourselves love and evolve if we choose to add to the cause of our own demise.